a piece of self that brought peace!

an impasse infiltrated 
through spaces open 
and crevices unmended
follies and foibles kept the door ajar 
a visible nothingness 
crowded my vision
I stayed calm, deeply calm 

I took to clicking pictures when an eerie emptiness was slowly penetrating my disturbed spirits. Conflictingly, all that I clicked during this period was brightly lit flowers and luscious green leaves – I clicked loads of them! It wasn’t a conscious move – just happened so!  

drifting drops add drama to delicacy

Bud of moon flower – spiraling to sky – the hour is hot – to wait for dawn – the dawn of twilight to bloom!

Buds of yellow Ixora – an early morning click

Unity in Diversity – a variegated yucca plant!

Saw vibrant colors scattered abundantly, elegantly and thought they turned more beautiful in smaller frames!

From fire to the tiniest grass, to fallen feathers, fallen leaves, barren branches, thorns, insects – I clicked them all slowly.. ……. insatiably! 

Clicked at brick and wood oven – the flame did inflame me!

small as it may seem – every life matters!

Uniquely symmetrical!

Frankly I don’t know what this is! But an insect sure it is! Can someone help me figure it?

Fire Monster – clicked at fire & wood oven – the fading flames!

The symmetry, gravity, delicacy, creativity – all got me engrossed! Somehow they all seemed to convey something – but never deciphered what… neither pondered to figure that out! Loved seeing them in small frames!  It somehow helped me make peace within!

Dragonflies amazed me with their power to stay oblivious to things around (looked like some kinda meditation). I got hooked on to them day after day. The regular ones never felt bothered with me hanging around!

Yellow dragonfly – master stilt dancer! Refraction of light in hues multitude!

focused and concentrated – both of us! Me – engrossed studying the transparency and intricate, innumerable geometrical figures called veins running through its wings! and Dragonfly – obviously, how do I know?

Clubtail dragonfly – colored magnificently! Transparency of wings and intricate designs again! – I saw a human crouching (do you? – cut the tail part though)

stilt dancing at best – metallic colors radiating spectral aura!

Red (Grasshawk) dragonfly. Only once did I venture to photo and it gave me such a look — it turned to me, tilted its big spherical head to angle me well, brought its wings to the fore to cover its body fully and stared at me kinda irritatedly – (accidentally I had pressed the shutters just then!)-  I closed my cam promptly—- I respect my privacy and respect yours too, I need my space and I respect yours too! You may or may not be a celebrity but I am not a paparazzi and my intention is not to disturb you either! I have friends in your family who never mind my presence around and love to model for hours together! 

to dance with the wind, to never ungrip! They went on meditation for minutes together unperturbed (frankly, didn’t have patience enough to check hours — the max. I could stay focused was about 10-15 mts. only — I moved ahead, they continued)! 

I’m no photographer but photography helped me stay calm when nerves could’ve wrecked signals across gray matter! It’s solely an unconscious indulgence mind chose to delve in! I was rescued unscathed…more calmed, more tempered! Our ‘self’ always finds its own way out!

May be one day my love for photography will fade just as it bloomed – unobserved! I may sync in tune with the wholesomeness and see no pleasure in capturing them in small frames! But for now, it continues to satisfy and I make peace within!

I thank all who have dropped in earlier and appreciated photographs here…your words have powered my lens more!

 

 All the above images were clicked at home using a basic compact digital camera -Panasonic (Lumix series – DMC FS62).  My interest grew and I moved on to Nikon Coolpix with more options but still cherish this old camera for all the peace it helped me locate!

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P.S: I am truly overwhelmed by all the support and appreciation. I never thought that my clicks would attract attention! Honestly, it makes me happy! Definitely it was not a pastime – it meant a lot (an immense lot) more to me – it gave me peace, made me calm and contented! My interest has since grown in plentitude and it’s been a few years now! Looking back and ‘connecting the dots’ – it all makes sense to me now!

(June 9, 2016)